If I had my druthers i would live a fairly healthy life for at least another ten years or more.  I am 76-years old and my mother and father lived to be 97 and 92 respectively.  Both still pretty much had their mental faculties intact, although my father had a stroke at about 86 and slowly declined after that.  I have two older siblings that are still living and in good health; yet i had an older brother die early (65) from stomach cancer.

The trouble is: I didn't live quite the same way that my parents did.  I smoked and drank a lot more than my parents did.  My parents fell somewhat on the tea-totaling side and i lived more on the degenerate side.

And now that Linda has passed, I think i have become even more degenerate--smoking weed and drinking--in attempt to keep my mind going and to stay up.  That might sound counter-intuitive to some, but it is the truth.

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In a way, i feel like Martin Luther King did, the night before he was killed in Memphis.  I feel that I have been to the mountain top of "world peace" and looked over the other side.  So, in truth, a lot of things don't mean much to me anymore, including my health.

What will be will be, but i see that as Goodness, so what difference does it make what i do?

Just the same i still am trying to hold out for my "golden dream" aspirations.  And if I had my druthers this is what i would do if (1) i am living; (2) world peace is accomplished; and (3) globanomics is recognized for what it is--a new way to look economically at the global community of human beings.

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If asked, i would like to set up globanomic programs at Indiana University and the University of Pennsyvania.  I would set aside five-years for that effort with two graduate programs up and running in year two.  The remaining three years would be used for fine-tuning the programs and maybe setting up a couple of undergraduate programs dealing with the same subject.

I believe i have talked of such things before.

Then once that was done, i think i would simply enjoy going into real retirement and in that process i think i would like to visit southern India to look for an Indian guru who might be able to help me with my life's ambition to discover God or Brahma.

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The thing is this.  I am starting to feel the effects in my body that my current lifestyle seems to be causing.  It's mostly just a "squeezy stomach" but for someone who has pretty much an "iron stomach" it concerns me.  There are two possible reasons for the squeeziness: (1) simply a nervous stomach waiting in anticipation for world peace to actually happen (sometimes accomplishing patience has its side effects like a nervous stomach); or (2) too much drinking.  I am of the mindset that the drinking is a bigger problem than smoking weed.  

Whatever that is the path that i am on.  I would like to get passed this current period and move on to my druthers, but that is something that i have no control over.

Just the same, i wanted to throw this out there again in an effort to save my life.  Like i have said, i feel that i have already reached the mountain top, so the only question is left is how i come down from it.