I get the feeling that i misspoke when i said my Talkmarkets' audience was expanding--it looks like i am stuck with the "twelve or so".  

These are very confusing times for me.  Not because of what is going on in the world and the United States (that would make anyone confused), but because i no longer have my Linda, my mental compass.  I know most of my friends and old colleagues think i am half-crazy, stupid, or misguided regarding my efforts, and i think most worry about me.

Just the same i plug on thinking that i cannot give up now--thanking everyone for their concern over my well-being.  

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But give me a break!  Why doesn't someone within Talkmarkets say something about things that can be "proven" with just simple, basic analysis?  Come on--someone answer that question for me.  Please!  Why doesn't at least one of my Talkmarkets' followers help me spread the word?  Why?  Did anyone read my "Four Secrets" blog post?  Don't you believe what i am saying? 

If that is the case, then do me a favor and quit reading what i have to say (or quit clicking on my post offering if that is all you are doing).   The intention of my writing is not for those who do not care about equity and fairness, but for those who do.  So, if you don't care anything about what i say, then please just quit reading.  I would much rather find "one single person" who would give me "honest feedback" than write to "twelve people" who only comment sporadically and sometimes inanely with regards to what i write.

My good friend, M, tells me that he thinks i am half-crazy.  Of course, he feels the same way about everyone else in the world, too.  In his view, i am simply foolish for trying to change the unchangeable.

My older sister thinks i should spend more time watching basketball than writing blogs for Talkmarkets.

And we all know what Tristan thinks about my effort--a fool's folly.

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Now let me tell you something that you might not know. 

I have always known that i might be on a fool's folly.  I have always known that my words would be met with skepticism--of that, i have always been sure.  I didn't even tell Linda about some of my thinking because i knew she wouldn't want me to think in that manner (e.g., my plans for graduate type programs in globanomics).  Linda would have thought that was getting way, way ahead of myself.  So, i kept that quiet with her.

And now, i feel like i am on a deserted island in the Pacific somewhere--all alone with my lonesome.  I have put up rescue signs, built humongous fires with smoke, and screamed at the moon--to no avail.  I am still out on that island all by myself.

And if you don't think that would screw up one's mind, then think again.

Oh, and yes, thank you for your concern for my well being (sic)--it means so much to me.